Sunday, April 25, 2010

Heavy thought trips: by Laurie Jackson

Heavy thought trips: by Laurie Jackson

In my OWN definition I believe occult type thinking or brainwashing is when a person believes or thinks something based on another person’s conclusions and not based on his or her own personal conclusions. Kind of like, “think for yourself”. I’m not saying not to get information elsewhere or even just decide in yourself to have faith in something. I’m proposing that we need to come to our own personal conclusions about things from our own experiences. Even my faith in God has come from many experiences and not just a one size fits all faith but based on my OWN personal journey.

To me, being of “sound mind” is when my thoughts and opinions are based on my own conclusions that my personal journey in life has brought me to.

I just looked up the word occult and the word brainwashing. Very thought provoking. ☺

I love the science channel. I learn so much from these scientists. I appreciate people who search out and discover things. Some of the scientists “seem” to still be caught up in the rhetoric they have heard and are not thinking for themselves. You can tell the shows that have the scientists that are open minded and not trying to prove anything to you but just show you what they have found or discovered for themselves. These types of cable shows fascinate me and I’ve sat and watched them for hours at a time. ☺ Well, maybe I was bored.

The book of proverbs in the King James Bible says… It is an honor for a King to search out a matter. What does this mean? My OWN interpretation is that the writer is saying…. A highly respected individual is honored to have to work out their own solutions for their own life or, (kingdom). Another proverb popped out (not literally. I was not taking any drugs at the time)… at me a few years ago that said: “He who gets wisdom loves His own soul”. In my OWN opinion of this proverb it meant that when you truly love yourself way down deep you will aspire and desire to improve your self and seek out a sounder mind because you care about you. This is my OWN opinion. So instead of trying to get smart so you can Love yourself you get smarted BECAUSE you value and love yourself.


I love writing down my thoughts because it seems to help me process what I’m learning. This way I don’t need to philosophies with people who really don’t have that bent. ☺ My husband really appreciates this. I have a few people that just LOVE to chat about everything under the sun. This is actually enjoyable for some of us. When I find these people we have some of the most amazing conversations.

I’ve always loved to ask questions. When I get fearful of any given situation my questioning seems to turn into anxious rumination. So this can be the down side to it. There is a good diet for your mind and a bad one, just like our bodies we need balance. There is always a balance to the things you enjoy doing and as I age, I’m finding that my interests in life are expanding and expounding.

I believe I have a creator that made me to think, reason, create and ponder this life He created for Himself and us. I believe the creator, I call Father, loves to have conversations with us. ☺

Thanks for joining me in this life journey…

Friday, April 23, 2010

INSTANT ITIMACY. By Laurie Jackosn 4/23/10

INSTANT ITIMACEY: By Laurie Jackson 4/23/2010

Instant intimacy in any relationship is not real or authentic intimacy. It is a fake and somewhat like, prostitution of the soul. When a person tells all about themselves the first time they meet you, be cautious because this person will have issues with setting healthy relationship boundaries and a person who can not set healthy boundaries for themselves will not be able to extend healthy boundaries for others. This is very important in regard to possessing healthy and satisfying relationships.

Yes God knows us perfectly. But we don’t know “Him” perfectly and in any other mere human relationship it would be irrational to presume instant intimacy.

The idea of “Instant Intimacy” and not possessing healthy boundaries is very much promoted when people put a demand on themselves or even others to Trust God immediately about something. To trust anyone is a process. God does not “demand” that we trust Him. He asks us to trust Him and He will invest in the relationship as much or as little as we choose. This idea that we MUST trust God is submerged with the “Instant Intimacy” issue.

We also can’t demand Love. Loving someone comes from relationship. I can love someone that I don’t know based on my own understanding and “experience” in relational Loving. Yet, I cannot demand them to love me and nor would I ever want to. Would you? Having healthy relationships requires at least one person to have realistic boundaries. Typically this issue attracts others that struggle in this same area. Children that are raised in abusive homes generally don’t know how to set healthy boundaries

I’m blogging about this because it is a huge problem and is being promoted in many aspects but the one that seems inappropriate is in your typical church atmosphere. To just tell someone to trust God or even to trust instantly in him/her is based on an unrealistic expectation. This seems to be more prevalent in the Pentecostal arena, that we are to INSTANTLY TRUST GOD. I'm learning about good boundaries right now and these thoughts came to mind.

“Instant intimacy” is not real... its irrational thinking... it is based on fakeness.... Like prostitution is a fantasy. We see this so much in sermons... and the little conversations in bible studies and in the halls of the churches...Just Trust God!!!.... To really trust a person is not instant. It’s based on a real relationship... of course when you get to know God for "reals". You more then likely will trust Him as you progress on the journey. He tends to prove Himself trustworthy. :) ... But there is so much missed if we embrace this “instant intimacy” theology. Real, authentic and healthy relationships take time and a great marriage takes a lifetime ☺

If we don't know how to have healthy boundaries for ourselves we cannot extend healthy boundaries into our relationships. People who don't know they are allowed to have boundaries, or if they feel guilty, fearful and insecure about even suggesting a person has over stepped their boundaries, are most always from the abuse cycle... this is all interrelated... only knowing victimization and not having any other skills will set you up for a lot of relationally challenged living.

Worship sessions in church sometimes can be so intimate and I'm just not sure if NOW is the time to Worship with this kind of intimacy with each other.... We are not that close normally... so why do we get together; spill our guts... and as a worship leader myself... I think about how I was up on the platform being so intimate with God in front of so many people. It seems like I allowed everyone to just watch me get undressed... It is so gross to me now...

If I am stirring you up, more then likely you have these same issues. It is extremely challenging to come to the realization that so much of how you’ve lived has been completely dysfunctional and just wrong. This instant intimacy way unfortunately continues and promotes the dysfunctional, abusive and unhealthy families in our world today.

Thankfully, God can reveal His truth with grace, mercy and strength to re-think our ways and give us courage to change.

Please do comment. It may lead to a great discussion. ☺

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Seek and We will Find....

Seek and you will find: by Laurie Jackson 4/11/2010

Have you ever tried to figure something out and worked really hard at it and then,…bada bing, bada boom… YOU GOT IT! A puzzle, your cheap furniture item that you got from Wal-Mart, a brainteaser, sudoko? I’ve watched my husband put so many of those brainteaser puzzles together it’s not even funny. He loves doing them. I even get him these things for stocking-stuffers. He does not reciprocate. He knows I hate those things. But one time I did one because I really wanted to prove to myself that I could! So I decided that I am smart enough and I did! And guess what? I found out it’s really not what I enjoy doing. ☺ But for that particular moment, I wanted to prove to myself that if he could do it, then so could I. Suffice to say. It was a break-through for me. Where there is a will, there is a way. I’ve read that if you seek for Wisdom like your average person would seek after gold or silver then eventually you will indeed find it. It is out there, let’s not give up.

When Christopher Columbus began to believe that the earth was round not many people thought he was right… so what did he do? He tried it! And He did not even fall off the face of the earth… Wow, scary! But He wasn’t blind. He studied and learned and opened his heart and mind. Wisdom is wisdom. It is either true wisdom that “works” or not. God knew the earth was round already. Columbus just figured out what was already true! In spite of what some would say.

Recently I came across some information that just seemed to bring so much of what I’ve been looking for, together. I’ve found bits and pieces of information that fit and make my life much easier to live, but still too much of my life, I’ve lived in frustration and “something” kept telling me that there is more to learn and know. I am not suggesting I’ve figured out life. There is always more to learn and grow in. This is the essence of life, the growth part. I think hopelessness stunts life and growth in the human spirit. We “learn” to be hopeless and helpless.

They did this “terrible” experiment on two groups of rats. One group they would hold under water and only released them when they stopped struggling. The other group was not exposed to this torment. When they released both groups into a pool of water, the group that “learned” helplessness all died. The other group found a way out! ☺ If you love rats this is a terrible experiment, but you must admit there is truth there. If we learned one way, scientists have discovered that it only takes four days to “unlearn” a thing. Some of the things that used to frustrate me don’t anymore. It is because I’ve learned some wisdom and truth in those areas. We just keep trying and look for something to fit right. “Something” in me just wouldn’t give up. Hope, I think is what we can call it.

I believe so many of us are like Christopher Columbus, we discern that not everyone knows what they are really talking about and we go off to find our own answers… This is the true human spirit: Some one who looks inside them selves for the truth. I’ve read that God has written the truth on our hearts. Hmmmm?

I’m hearing Dr. Phil say, “How’s that work’n for ya?” This is the question I ask myself often. If it’s not working for me then I keep searching. Eating right and exercising really work for me. I feel better, look better, and think better, so things are “better” when I do this.

Keep looking, keep searching for wisdom and we will continue to find it over and over. Don’t give up hope for the better. Where there is hope, there is God and where there is God, there is Love and Wisdom. Don’t give up trying. You never fail until you stop trying. Stay hopeful there is wisdom to find out there. ☺

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Saturday, March 20, 2010

Tree of LIfe

Tree of Life: by Laurie Jackson 3/20/2010

In order to enjoy this blog or get anything out of it, you MUST have an imagination. So just close your eyes, no wait! You gotta keep ‘em open to read this. Seriously, you have to picture a very wise older Japanese man. let’s say..? someone just like Mr. Miyagi from the Karate Kid. Got it? Okay.. say this next phrase with a Mr. Miyagi accent: “Tree root in-a winta-time an-a fruit in-a summa-time.” I hope you were able to conjure all that up. Lol ☺

What Mr. Miyagi, said was that Tree’s of all types, only find new roots during the winter season because the nutrients is no longer available from the sun. In the summer time the tree expends all of it’s energy to produce fruit and has plenty of nutrients from the sun. In the winter time trees must dig down deeper to get nutrients for life. Both seasons are very important. If a tree never rooted deeper down into the soil it couldn’t produce more fruit in the summer season. Also a tree becomes more stable and harder to “shake” as it roots down deeper and deeper. When it is freezing outside the trees’ only source of nutrients must come from deep down under the frozen soil because it gets little nutrients from the sun or rain in the winter.

Of course this whole process is phenomenal! We have an amazing creator! We are all spiritual beings and grow physically as well as spiritually. Whether we believe this way or not, your spirit is
Growing. It is amazing how trees and plants can endure incredible hard ship and still grow. I believe people are even more amazing then the tree species. ☺

The point of this blog is to encourage anyone, including myself, during the winter seasons of life. Could it be that when life seems barren, restless and just plain hard, we, as living creations are just like the tree, being prepared for more life giving fruit in our lives?

I believe we need to dig down deeper into our souls and look “harder” for the source of life when life “seems” hard and cold. When a pregnant mother is preparing for her soon coming child she begins to get restless and uncomfortable. If it’s her FIRST child she has NO idea how beautiful and amazing this will be.

“Tree root in-a winta-time an-a fruit in-a summa-time”

We can see the hard days; months or even years as opportunities to believe we will be better, stronger and more life- giving people. To me, these thoughts are filled with truth and wisdom and give the hard-times more purpose to the pain. I love being encouraged by someone who has gone through a difficult issue. I find it even more comforting to be encouraged by a person who has come through some of life’s most difficult circumstances and have more amazing Love and life as a result.

It is so disheartening when someone gives trite words, when I am in the depths of despair. Like “Buck up” or “get over it” There is no wisdom here and certainly no love or compassion. Instead, I am encouraged to move on when a person brings wisdom, insight and love with their words to me.

So I WON’T ever say, “buck up” to anyone. I would look for someone who has been there and truly triumphed. You may not even have to look outside your own self. We’ve all experienced pain and all of us have the source of life in our hearts.

However you choose to root “in-a- winta” season, remember that you have to dig deeper for the source of life and expand your wisdom, love for yourself and others. This will make the rooting process, less confusing, but not necessarily less painful. Think about the kindness and gentleness of a wise, loving and experienced person speaking directly to you. You may come up with some amazing insights that change your entire Life. ☺

I hope you enjoyed reading, “Tree of Life.”

“Tree root in-a winta-time an-a fruit in-a summa-time” ☺

Monday, March 15, 2010

Extreme/Balance

Extreme/Balance by: Laurie Jackson 3/15/10

The title? Yes, very much an Oxymoron. My life has felt like an oxymoron just trying to “find” balance. Up and down, jerking myself from one extreme to another. What we “should” eat, how we “should” exercise, what we “should” do or not do, how we "should" live. The list goes on and on. (Don’t “should” on yourself.) I loved that phrase so much, the first time I heard it.

Everyone has an opinion about what you “should” do and some think they have all the answers for your life because they are finding balance in an area. I do this too, “Oh my gosh… you “should,” read this book, it’s sooooo good!” I believe we can test our lives to see if we are balanced. Kinda like looking under the hood of your car. Just looking at some of the basic needs of all human beings on earth, can be a great start for us.

I believe Human beings need to:
1) Love and be loved
2) Have joy and pleasure
3) Move their bodies
4) Enjoy the taste of their food
5) Be and feel creative/productive
6) Be in the sunshine
7) Have confidence to overcome challenges.

I think the best Wisdom I’ve ever read is to AVOID ALL EXTREMES. I can’t say that I’ve lived this at all times, but it keeps coming up and I keep coming back to it. I realize that I loose energy from being dehydrated, so what did I do? I ended up drinking too much water. You can actually drink too much water. This thought never occurred to me because Water is a good thing. What is extreme for one person won’t be extreme for another. It seems vague, but I think each person can look intuitively in their heart and just know what balance is for them selves. If we are honest with ourselves, we can see where we are out of balance.

I’ve always wanted balance and peace in my life. I think you have to want it. Some people don’t want it. Seriously, ask a drug addict. Then ask someone in AA. See what I mean? Each of us know in our heart of hearts what balance is. We know what the truth is. We have to want it. When you really want it, you will find it.

I realize we grow into this and find more and more wisdom on the journey. I think it’s more helpful when someone just loves you along the way and allows you to come to your own senses about these areas of life. It seems so simple but why have I had so much trouble finding balance?

I think I’ve had so much trouble for the most part, because I’ve had a hard time trusting my heart. I’ve doubted myself way too much. I’m certainly not advocating that we can’t all use some great counsel from time to time, but ultimately we only listen to what others say if it agrees with us anyway. It’s good to read and listen outside of our own experiences. This can keep us out of some excessive pain if we are really seeking balance and truth. If not, you just can’t force someone, but most people will let you love them along the way.

As for me, I’m going to try to avoid all extremes and hopefully find more balance in life. ☺

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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

LIFE FEELS… Laurie Jackson… 3-10-2010

I’m attempting to coin a phrase today and replace the old cliché's from the past, i.e.: the 70’s “Shit happens”, the 80’s “Life goes on” and the 90’s “whatever.” It seems “Life Feels” is appropriate for 2010.

Sometimes Life Feels: hard, frustrating, confusing, exhausting, satisfying, fulfilling, exciting, vibrant, fearful, disappointing, joyful, amazing and just plain beautiful! So I’m blogging to express this new cliché’… “Life Feels” ~

Life runs it’s course and fights for itself.

We can embrace life or choose to fight it. To quote Yoda, from Star Wars “Don’t think, Feel.” You can try and figure it out, go ahead, do what you gotta do. I think it’s a journey that will lead some to find Love, Faith and hope and unfortunately some to only see hopelessness. I’ve spoken to many homeless people and I will never forget a man named Sirus. He surprised me and taught me multitudes over just one meal. I left thinking, “wow, I didn’t know anything”. He seemed to know Love and He told me some amazing stories about helping so many people that he came across as a homeless man.” I was very inspired by Him.

Not only does Life Feel for us, but Life Feels for all those around us. The question’s I have for myself is: “Laurie, as you share in the feelings of others, can you see that there is typically a reason why people feel the way they do? Can you share in their feelings without judging them or even taking their feelings and making them your own? Can you just allow them to Feel Life and not assume they need to be fixed or that you need to fix them?”

I’ve found that Life is not lived in a box. Can we just choose the good feelings and ignore the bad or choose the bad and ignore the good? I know some mentally ill people that try to live Life this way. I know some very hopeless people that try to live this way and I know some very pretentious people that try to live this way.

I’m an Italian, female, musician so Life “Really” Feels… add PMS to that and I’ll let your imagination wander. ☹ ☺ ☹ ☺… etc…

We are not in charge of life itself. We’re not the creator of Life. We can only respond to Life and Life, Just Simply Feels!

How are you Feeling today? ☹ ☺