Moving On..... By Laurie Jackson 6/15/2010

I just looked at how many blogs I've written these past few months and I imagine out of all nine, for the most part my perceptions of my own thoughts have “Moved On.” Today I was sitting in the car with my fourteen-year-old daughter as we waited for my son's Tae- Kwon-do class to end. She said something I thought was very profound. She said, "Sometimes it's not quitting, it's just moving on." I don't know what we were talking about that made her say this but I knew what she meant straight away.

I have a friend who promotes that; a persons life should be lived organically and able to grow naturally from the heart as an individual, opposed to the pressure of comparing or striving to be what another person or a system of belief would try to convince them to think. A blog I wrote called “Heavy thought trips” is probably one of those blogs I would still agree with completely. I talk about an idea of just simply thinking things through for yourself and coming to your own conclusions about life as you search for answers and just live and learn through your own experiences instead of mimicking and thinking the way others do.

So this blog is just another place I’m moving on or into. The old is passing away and I’m naturally growing into someone that thinks differently then I have in the recent past. I don’t look so different, although I’m trying REALLY hard by dying my hair, working out etc. ☺ But of course I’m talking about an inside type of change.

This past year I have been willing and almost forced to re-evaluate my beliefs about what I feel are the most important aspects in my life; which is relationships. I’ve moved on from some relationships and changed my responses to many. The reason I believe this happened is because I chose to follow my heart more instead of what “looks” like the right or wrong thing to do. I don’t want to live any other way hence the title: Moving On.

I think this must be how it feels for a person coming out of a controlling family life or even maybe say an occult. I have never felt so free to be me. I trust my heart for many reasons that I won’t even blog about at this point. It feels so right but at first I doubted almost every step, except something deeper inside kept me “moving on” in this direction. I’m so glad I did!

Living organically means that you will grow in your natural state. You may even look wild to those who are cultivated by the factory farmers. You may even seem like you have too many bugs on you because you weren’t sprayed with tons of pesticides. I’m no longer making all my decisions based on what everyone else does or expects. What freedom to get out from under such oppression? ☺ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsWgG5v7A3A

I just know I’m Moving on and following my heart which is God given. Let me clarify that I don’t mean I follow every whim and emotion because I would weigh over 300 lbs if I did. I’m not talking about the external, but being truly connected to what I really want and desire from my gut. Scientists have found that there is a chemical reaction that takes place from your gut when a persons instincts kick in. It’s a healthy chemical for your body and isn’t toxic for you. It was created so you would run for dear life! ☺ Do ya get it? If you’ve cut yourself off from your heart it may take awhile to find this natural, organic real you. Hang in there because you were created to be you!

Organically grown is always the healthier choice to make. It seems to be more “spendy” though. Hmmmm?

Until my heart leads me back to blog again I do thank you for sharing in my Journey. And a special thanks to those of you who always seem to find the Best in my heart, you know who you are. ☺