"Secretariat" my movie review... by Laurie Jackson

“SECRETARIAT” my movie review… by Laurie Jackson 10/23/2010

Watching the movie “Secretariat” was not just entertainment for me, it was therapeutic. I felt counseled by the wisdom of historical humanity.

I noticed three things, four if I include that the star looked like a splitting image of Mary Tyler Moore.

Because this was a true story, I valued the lessons of this journey and what I imparted from it. Firstly, I noticed she followed her intuition. When it “seemed” like she was wrong she chose to follow what was “right” in her heart. Love seemed to be at the root of this and not pride. Love for her father and belief in His wisdom.

Secondly, I really keyed in on how difficult it is to truly follow your heart. You don’t always get patted on the back. You don’t always “seem” to win right away. The only thing you have is the satisfaction that you felt you made the wisest and best choice you honestly discerned and for that you at least have no “deep” regret nagging at you.

Thirdly I could see that in this true story of a victorious person, like so many others, she was alone and isolated during her hardest season. People don’t want to support you when they don’t believe in you. They will celebrate later when there is evidence of your success. Most, even close family and friends, won’t back you up when your heart leads you to do something “different” or unconventional. All great leaders have this in common. Good leaders don’t need to use fear and manipulation to convince other people around them to agree with them. I believe it is because truly great leaders are motivated and empowered by Love.

I loved this story and I loved that she looked just like Mary Tyler Moore. This helped submerge my mind into the time and setting that the story actually took place.

The lady is still alive today and did a cameo in her movie; so don’t forget to stay for the very end.

IN COURAGE MEANT IN RELATED SHIPS: by Laurie Jackson

Today started out to be a very discouraging day. I immediately called on the loving, wise and trusted friends that I consider pure gifts from God himself. Of course they came through, they ALWAYS do. If I've learned one thing, it's to ask for help. We all need it. The rich and famous, the wise and learned need it just as much as the poor and desolate. I’ve tried to help numerous home-less people and I’ve learned so much from “all” types. One thing I’m realizing is that “Shame” or the lie that we are the only ones that ever feel bad is what disables us to ask for help. We are all in need of courage because we all struggle with FEAR. The opposite of fear is love and the only thing that counter- acts our fears and insecurities, is the presence of Love. A friend that can help you embrace "courage" while facing the fears that you may be struggling with on any given day is a must have! This is love in action or rather, in deed! Barbara Streisand sang it best…. PEOPLE… PEOPLE WHO NEED PEOPLE ARE THE LUCKIEST PEOPLE. In the world. I can’t help myself, I love her! I’m not talking about being codependent or having toxic relationships. I’m speaking from a healthy relational stance on all of this.

If I'm not in need of "encouragement," I end up being the encourager. Being an encourager usually inspires the very person dishing it out. So never feel bad for asking, because when people help people, this gives life to everyone involved. “Paying it forward” is really what's going on here. The energy of life or rather Love itself permeates everything and everyone. Vulnerability means you have the power and strength in you to be wounded. To be honest with yourself and a few others “that you can trust,” is so freeing. I’ve had to learn the hard way to not trust everyone. I believe if we follow our hearts in this area or our “gut feelings” we’ll usually be accurate. You don’t have to tell everything to everyone. Again, I’ve come from the school of hard knocks here. J

What are we afraid of? I'll name a few, and I'm sure I'll miss a bunch here. We are afraid of losing and or being less then. We are afraid of not accomplishing our dreams. We’re afraid of being sad and lonely. Everyone I’ve ever known is or has been afraid that they’ve messed up their future from their past mistakes. We all fear not having our needs met. Everyone is afraid of pain, failure or even being the cause of another person’s pain. We are afraid of being afraid!

About a year ago, I made a list of people that I believe God had “planted” to be an important part of my life. I wrote a note to myself and categorized them in groups. I know I know it's starting to sound weird here. But let me explain. My therapy program suggested this! You see, when we feel down, we don't think rationally and as clear as usual. So I had to "remember" who to call and that I indeed had a vast reservoir of friends whom I could trust my heart with. I also used this list to remind me to “invest” in these particular friendships. Sounds contrived and fake? Not my motive at all. I just kept getting in a slump and staying there. It works both ways. All my friends call me when they are down too, and or happy. J

We need a “variety” of people in our lives. The healthiest human beings have numerous connections to many different types of people. This doesn't mean to have tons of acquaintances or fans, but rather close friendships that you can honestly trust your heart with and invest back into their lives as well.

Another healthy aspect of relationships that I’ve been learning about is that you need more then one, two or even three good friends because “one” person can not meet all of your needs and vice versa. All of us have different gifts to offer each other. I have friends that I love to laugh with. I have certain people I can call on for wisdom. Some friends are more gifted in the heart issues of life and some are better at helping you with logical, more concrete problem solving. When I began to be mindful to the supportive community of people that were just naturally placed around me, I realized how good I had it. I think it’s important to start looking, investing and even asking God to show you who He has “given” you. Again this works “both” ways. I am much more “available” to these relationships now, from just simply being aware and more in-tuned to the others around me.

Having Healthy relationships doesn’t seem to be that easy for some of us. I think it is very similar to spiritual or physical health. You either learned it well from your up bringing, you didn’t learn it at all or you learned how to be “crazy as hell.” J At any rate, all types of health can be learned. We are amazing human beings. The more I know myself, appreciate my strengths and learn from my own weakness’, the more I adore and see how magnificent the people around me are. I suppose healthy relationships start with having a healthy one with you. Give yourself Love and the encouragement you need by asking others for help. This enables us to better encourage others as well. I LOVE PEOPLE!

Enjoying the Journey, the ride and sometimes what seems like a rickety old roller coaster. With love, Laurie

DON’T PUT ALL YOUR EGGS IN ONE BASKET…. By Laurie Jackson 10/9/2010

DON’T PUT ALL YOUR EGGS IN ONE BASKET…. By Laurie Jackson 10/9/2010

I’m getting so upset as I watch my friends and family members have cancer, get surgery and suffer in so many ways, just because we are not ASKING ANY QUESTIONS! We are just going along with the Emperor and not wearing any clothes, humiliating ourselves. Not to mention freezing our butts off.

Everyone knows the “Frog in the pot analogy” right? If you don’t, let me explain. You can put a frog in a luke-warm pot right on the stove without a lid. They won’t jump out because they like it there. The water feels great! Well, because they are cold blooded and stupid, you can slowly turn up the heat as there body temperature adapts they STILL will NOT jump out, hence killing themselves even though all along they could have jumped out! Get it? We are not cold blooded nor dumb. Or are we? As I grow-up and attain more wisdom with age, I become ever more aware of this mental health issue. (I so wish the grey hair and wrinkles were not included.) LOL… Anyway, I’m getting so aggravated with the many “Basket cases” in our culture. Let me explain.

You got the medical institution, I love the Doctors they save lives! If I had a severed arm I would go straight to the Emergency room. I have not heard of a better place to go for help in this situation. If you have, let me know and I will consider “OTHER OPTIONS.” If I had cancer, I would consider ALL my options. There is ALWAYS MORE then one solution to any given problem. I’ve read too much about health at this point to just sit through chemo. I would consider it, but I would also consider or at least ask some questions and not just take one person’s opinion. Isn’t this just basic wisdom? Here is a verse for all you scriptures huggers out there. (Proverbs 24:6)…there is wisdom in a multitude of counsel). BTW I’m a fellow “scripture hugger”. I love the scriptures. It can always back up pure truth. If it’s not pure, well, you’ll have to take it out of context first. Anyway back to the subject.

I’m just exasperated with how crazy everyone seems to be getting. It’s like we’re living in the Fricken Twilight Zone. Not thinking for ourselves, not asking any questions, taking one persons word for it. Come on people lets surmise a little. I love Martin Luther King Jr. He is one of my favorite people. He said:

"Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking.
There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked
solutions." ~Martin Luther King Jr.

So let’s talk about Theology. Oh yes I did write that. I used to think my pastor new all the answers, in-fact, when I was a newly wed; I used to think my husband had all the answers. I learned quickly that he did not. I believe Even Jesus Christ himself wants us to think, surmise and ask questions about the truth. All the Jewish people were trained to reason and think. This is the very culture Jesus chose to live in. I read a book called “Velvet Elvis”. It was phenomenal, and it covered much about the Jewish culture and how they were taught to reason together. I’ve learned more from the Holy Spirit asking Him questions then I’ve ever learned from a five- point sermon. Just saying! Now I’ve learned a lot from a sermon here and there but I always think about what is being taught, for myself, as well. The best teachers will encourage this. I posted this the other day on face book. I had so many amazing responses and met some new great friends.
ANY: institution that doesn't encourage you to "think for yourself" but rather tells you how and what to think is Occult and you should not give them that much control. This goes for the marriage institution, family, school, medical, your government and your church institution. Wow, I just had to get that out there......What does everyone “think” about this?~ Laurie Jackson
And my friend loved it so much that she translated it into Spanish:
Cualquier institucion que no te motiva a "pensar" por "ti" mismo, pero
al contrario te dice "que y como" pensar es un culto y no le debemos dar control. Esto incluye la institucion del matrimonio, familia, escuela,
medico, el govierno y hasta tu iglesia. Wow! solo necesitaba comentar
esto.... Cual es tu pensar acerca ...de esto? Por Laurie Jackson ☺
Thanks Cecilia! ☺
Then there’s the Government. America is based on people who wanted to serve the king of their choice. Need I go on here? There is a time for war and to fight for what you believe is true (proverbs: 24:6). I would not want to live in any other country. I believe we have the best government in the world. I hope we keep it a democracy. I really do. I’ll do my part and ponder. Oh and I’ll vote too. ☺ I used to just ask my husband, whom he was voting for because I was too lazy to think and research the issues for myself. Even though we still tend to vote the same, at least I know it’s my own vote now. ☺
The smart, wise and savvy business man/women will tell you NOT to put all your eggs in one basket. This is true for finances as well as community and even friendships. I took an amazing course from Britain called,” Uncommon Knowledge.” They taught about healthy community and relationships. It never dawned on me that I had all my eggs in one basket until of course I dropped the entire basket. Ooops! If you’re a work-a-holic… all your friends and support for life will be in ONE community. If you’re a church a-holic all your friends and support for life will be in one community. It is best to not be an “a holic” of any kind… lol. I’m learning that it is indeed healthy and wise to NOT have all your eggs in one basket.

Let us reason together………...

If the frog was “thinking” at all, he may say to himself. “I know I’m cold blooded and made to adapt my temperature to my environment, so I “think” I will jump out of THIS pot and check to see what’s going on elsewhere. If nothing is awry, then I’ll go back to my pot that I enjoyed.” But at least he checked it out. You see what I’m saying?

This mindset of “Not thinking for yourself” is permeating all of our institutions. Education becomes horrific, if the teacher does not encourage the student to reason.

To "put all your eggs in one basket" is to risk losing everything all at one time. Example: "My Husband is a very careful investor; he never puts all of his eggs in one basket." If you had a certain number of "eggs", it would be safest to put those eggs in different "baskets" and not "put them all in one basket". To "put all your eggs in one basket" would be to risk losing all of your "eggs" in case you drop that one "basket". Example: "The best way to gamble is to only bet small amounts of money and never put all your eggs in one basket." Example: "We know that you want to become an actor and we support you, but we still want you to graduate from college. Don't put all your eggs in one basket."

Another thought is: if one egg is “cracked”, all of its icky, gooey yokey stuff will get all over the other eggs. If you’re in that basket, just get out for a minute and get cleaned up so that you can help “Humpty Dumpty” get put back together again. ☺ (Matt 7:3-11)

I’m teaching my children to think for themselves. I give them my thoughts, sometimes weather they want them or not, but I still encourage them to think it through, ponder a little, see what others are saying. If it’s true now, it will be true later. If they are “truly” looking for the “truth.” they’ll “truly” find it. ☺

If the Doctor that is giving you an angioplasty has clogged arteries himself, get the angioplasty because he knows how to do that well. But DON’T ask him to help you keep your arteries from being clogged. ?? He obviously has not looked into all the solutions. You don’t have to stay in the pot people! I so admire my husband for looking into alternative medicine just after he had a minor heart attack. He is a wise egg! ☺ Get out there, ponder, cogitate and ask some questions for heaven sake!

One last great story and perrrrrfect example is this one. There was this young mother that was cutting off the ends of her ham before she put it in the pot. Her husband asked her why she did this. She said she didn’t really know, except that’s what her mom did. She then, asked her mother why SHE cut the ends of the ham off before putting the ham in the pot. Her mother didn’t know either and told her to go ask Grandma because that’s who she learned it from. You can only guess what Grandma said. Grandma says, “Because the pot was too small and we didn’t have enough money to buy a bigger pot!”

Hope you’re laughing and or at least “thinking” about it. ☺ I love you all, Laurie <3 <3 <3

DON’T PUT ALL YOUR EGGS IN ONE BASKET…. By Laurie Jackson 10/9/2010

I’m getting so upset as I watch my friends and family members have cancer, get surgery and suffer in so many ways, just because we are not ASKING ANY QUESTIONS! We are just going along with the Emperor and not wearing any clothes, humiliating ourselves. Not to mention freezing our butts off.

Everyone knows the “Frog in the pot analogy” right? If you don’t, let me explain. You can put a frog in a luke-warm pot right on the stove without a lid. They won’t jump out because they like it there. The water feels great! Well, because they are cold blooded and stupid, you can slowly turn up the heat as there body temperature adapts they STILL will NOT jump out, hence killing themselves even though all along they could have jumped out! Get it? We are not cold blooded nor dumb. Or are we? As I grow-up and attain more wisdom with age, I become ever more aware of this mental health issue. (I so wish the grey hair and wrinkles were not included.) LOL… Anyway, I’m getting so aggravated with the many “Basket cases” in our culture. Let me explain.

You got the medical institution, I love the Doctors they save lives! If I had a severed arm I would go straight to the Emergency room. I have not heard of a better place to go for help in this situation. If you have, let me know and I will consider “OTHER OPTIONS.” If I had cancer, I would consider ALL my options. There is ALWAYS MORE then one solution to any given problem. I’ve read too much about health at this point to just sit through chemo. I would consider it, but I would also consider or at least ask some questions and not just take one person’s opinion. Isn’t this just basic wisdom? Here is a verse for all you scriptures huggers out there. (Proverbs 24:6)…there is wisdom in a multitude of counsel). BTW I’m a fellow “scripture hugger”. I love the scriptures. It can always back up pure truth. If it’s not pure, well, you’ll have to take it out of context first. Anyway back to the subject.

I’m just exasperated with how crazy everyone seems to be getting. It’s like we’re living in the Fricken Twilight Zone. Not thinking for ourselves, not asking any questions, taking one persons word for it. Come on people lets surmise a little. I love Martin Luther King Jr. He is one of my favorite people. He said:

"Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking.
There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked
solutions." ~Martin Luther King Jr.

So let’s talk about Theology. Oh yes I did write that. I used to think my pastor new all the answers, in-fact, when I was a newly wed; I used to think my husband had all the answers. I learned quickly that he did not. I believe Even Jesus Christ himself wants us to think, ponder and ask questions about the truth. All the Jewish people were trained to reason and think. This is the very culture Jesus chose to live in. I read a book called “Velvet Elvis”. It was phenomenal, and it covered much about the Jewish culture and how they were taught to reason together. I’ve learned more from the Holy Spirit asking Him questions then I’ve ever learned from a five- point sermon. Just saying! Now I’ve learned a lot from a sermon here and there but I always think about what is being taught, for myself, as well. The best teachers will encourage this. I posted this the other day on face book. I had so many amazing responses and met some new great friends.
ANY: institution that doesn't encourage you to "think for yourself" but rather tells you how and what to think is Occult and you should not give them that much control. This goes for the marriage institution, family, school, medical, your government and your church institution. Wow, I just had to get that out there......What does everyone “think” about this?~ Laurie Jackson
And my friend loved it so much that she translated it into Spanish:
Cualquier institucion que no te motiva a "pensar" por "ti" mismo, pero
al contrario te dice "que y como" pensar es un culto y no le debemos dar control. Esto incluye la institucion del matrimonio, familia, escuela,
medico, el govierno y hasta tu iglesia. Wow! solo necesitaba comentar
esto.... Cual es tu pensar acerca ...de esto? Por Laurie Jackson ☺
Thanks Cecilia! ☺
Then there’s the Government. America is based on people who wanted to serve the king of their choice. Need I go on here? There is a time for war and to fight for what you believe is true (proverbs: 24:6). I would not want to live in any other country. I believe we have the best government in the world. I hope we keep it a democracy. I really do. I’ll do my part and ponder. Oh and I’ll vote too. ☺ I used to just ask my husband, whom he was voting for because I was too lazy to think and research the issues for myself. Even though we still tend to vote the same, at least I know it’s my own vote now. ☺
The smart, wise and savvy business man/women will tell you NOT to put all your eggs in one basket. This is true for finances as well as community and even friendships. I took an amazing course from Britain called,” Uncommon Knowledge.” They taught about healthy community and relationships. It never dawned on me that I had all my eggs in one basket until of course I dropped the entire basket. Ooops! If you’re a work-a-holic… all your friends and support for life will be in ONE community. If you’re a church a-holic all your friends and support for life will be in one community. It is best to not be an “a holic” of any kind… lol. I’m learning that it is indeed healthy and wise to NOT have all your eggs in one basket.

Let us reason together………...

If the frog was “thinking” at all, he may say to himself. “I know I’m cold blooded and made to adapt my temperature to my environment, so I “think” I will jump out of THIS pot and check to see what’s going on elsewhere. If nothing is awry, then I’ll go back to my pot that I enjoyed.” But at least he checked it out. You see what I’m saying?

This mindset of “Not thinking for yourself” is permeating all of our institutions. Education becomes horrific, if the teacher does not encourage the student to reason.

To "put all your eggs in one basket" is to risk losing everything all at one time. Example: "My Husband is a very careful investor; he never puts all of his eggs in one basket." If you had a certain number of "eggs", it would be safest to put those eggs in different "baskets" and not "put them all in one basket". To "put all your eggs in one basket" would be to risk losing all of your "eggs" in case you drop that one "basket". Example: "The best way to gamble is to only bet small amounts of money and never put all your eggs in one basket." Example: "We know that you want to become an actor and we support you, but we still want you to graduate from college. Don't put all your eggs in one basket."

Another thought is: if one egg is “cracked”, all of its icky, gooey yokey stuff will get all over the other eggs. If you’re in that basket, just get out for a minute and get cleaned up so that you can help “Humpty Dumpty” get put back together again. ☺ (Matt 7:3-11)

I’m teaching my children to think for themselves. I give them my thoughts, sometimes weather they want them or not, but I still encourage them to think it through, ponder a little, see what others are saying. If it’s true now, it will be true later. If they are “truly” looking for the “truth.” they’ll “truly” find it. ☺

If the Doctor that is giving you an angioplasty has clogged arteries himself, get the angioplasty because he knows how to do that well. But DON’T ask him to help you keep your arteries from being clogged. ?? He obviously has not looked into all the solutions. You don’t have to stay in the pot people! I so admire my husband for looking into alternative medicine just after he had a minor heart attack. He is a wise egg! ☺ Get out there, ponder, cogitate and ask some questions for heaven sake!

One last great story and perrrrrfect example is this one. There was this young mother that was cutting off the ends of her ham before she put it in the pot. Her husband asked her why she did this. She said she didn’t really know, except that’s what her mom did. She then, asked her mother why SHE cut the ends of the ham off before putting the ham in the pot. Her mother didn’t know either and told her to go ask Grandma because that’s who she learned it from. You can only guess what Grandma said. Grandma says, “Because the pot was too small and we didn’t have enough money to buy a bigger pot!”

Hope you’re laughing and or at least “thinking” about it. ☺ I love you all, Laurie <3 <3 <3

SURVIVING VS THRIVING AND MISSING LINKS: Spirit, mind and Body: By Laurie Jackson

SURVIVING VS THRIVING AND MISSING LINKS:
Spirit, mind and Body: By Laurie Jackson

I haven’t blogged much because I’ve been seriously enjoying this summer. It had nothing to do with the weather, obviously! ☺ My sister said I should just make myself blog every week and she even gave me a name for one… “Just For The Blog Of It!’ She makes me laugh every time we’re together! Every time!!!!! I had to disagree though, at least for now. I would rather wait for the right timing and inspiration before I blog away. For your benefit and mine. ☺ So here’s what happened: (that was for all you “Monk” fans out there)

For many years I functioned and lived in survival mode. I didn’t realize it at the time because I hadn’t experienced much of a thriving mode. Memories of thriving were moments in child hood when I had energy and felt loved but since my early adolescents I’ve struggled with Asthma, depression, mood swings and low self esteem. As I became a teenager I would devour self-help books and look to God in the bible for help. I found some comfort and many of the books I read did help and gave me hope to keep on trying.

As I became a young mother, suddenly my issues became even more immanent to conquer, as I wanted to be a loving and fit role model for our precious child. In desperation and out of the immense Love I had for our new baby, I began to admit I was at the end of my own resources and needed divine intervention for many of my spiritual and psychological torment.

This is When “Surviving” had moments of “Thriving” I would find God in such a real way. I would sense His presence. Then It would seem to fade or end. I would work hard again to “keep” God around so I could get help. At this point of my (blog/biography) I will fast forward many years. This cycle went on and on. I received much revelation from God about His Way, Truth and Life but it was still such a roller coaster yet slowly coming to the end of the ride. God works it all out for good “doesn’t He?” The missing link was that God needed to get “religion” or rather the “leaven” out of my heart, mind and soul. This was exactly what was causing most of my problems. A very helpful resource, out of many, that God led me to was:

http://lifestream.org/


God spent a lot of time with me in much solitude cleaning me up from all the leaven that had been deposited in my Theology. It was a Journey full of hard and maybe some unnecessary trials.

Next, was my mind, the way I processed my thoughts, and problem solved was extremely unproductive and sometimes just plain harmful. An excellent resource that I wish I had my hands on when I was a young teenager was a $99.00 dollar course I found on -line. This simple way of “learning” how to think should be taught in schools. This program was actually developed in Britain and they have taught it in some of their middle schools as well.
I would have never been open to a “secular” psychology program when I was full of “religion.” Some of us learned toxic and destructive thinking patterns from role models who simply didn’t have role models and skills for themselves… etc… I found this web site called “Uncommon Knowledge” to be some of the simplest and best counseling I’ve ever received.

http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/


Next, was and final resolution of my physiological state. As I mentioned earlier, I had severe Asthma as a child. “Back-in-the-day”.. ☺ the Doctors didn’t know any better but to give people an over extended prescription of “antibiotics” They now know that is causes all sorts of problems. To make a long story short… I will say that being exposed to antibiotics on such a long term basis caused me to have an imbalance of candida or an allergic reaction to some foods. I believe this was the root of an eating disorder I struggled with for years. I remember thinking that I just simply felt better when I didn’t eat. I later figured out I could eat “certain” things and would still feel okay. I know now I needed to eat much more of the food that I could eat because as a result I kept see-sawing back and forth from starving myself to causing an imbalance in my system. I would keep going back to a vegetarian diet. I had just enough knowledge to be a danger to myself. I needed to know How, What and Why. After many years of self- study stemming out of desperation. I found a cure for this and most ailments. Except a severed limb of course. This resource may help you with any physical ailments you may have.

http://www.raw-food-health.net/

You can also visit my on-line coaching program at:
http://beachbodycoach.com/esuite/home/ljackson

My life is not perfect! In fact that is a toxic way to think. You will set your self up for failure and become a “defeated perfectionist.” This mind set has permeated my spiritual, emotional and physical life. Just giving up the “all or nothing thinking” can do wonders by itself.

I shared this because I feel inspired by what God has done and is still doing in my life. I am grateful for the wisdom that surrounds us. If we just weed through all the other stuff and follow our hearts I believe Truth and freedom are not a distant future. Each trial creates more roots and causes us to bear more fruit in our lives. I hope you’ve been inspired and I hope these links help you on your own journey.

If you would like to leave a comment and follow this thread, just click on the green comment button and don’t forget to click the box that says follow up e-mails. Love 2 U! ☺

The Wisdom Of Health: By Laurie Jackson 6/22/2010

The Wisdom of Health: by Laurie Jackson

“Yes, this is the wisdom of health, enjoy the process. We were created to be healthy so when we go that direction we are actually living out what is most true about ourselves.” :)

I posted this on a thread the other day. It just sorta came out from my heart. I was so excited for my friend Jennifer’s’ success in her own health journey. She posted her before and after picture and I couldn’t help but celebrate this new place she has come to.

I guess the question and the real point of this blog is this: Is my friend Jennifer coming to a “New” place or returning to who she was created to be in the first place? When we “follow our heart” we will end up in a true representation of our intended creation. (That last sentence could be in a rap song) That’s why I’m keep’n it in! ☺ Being true to your self and loving yourself is ultimate wisdom. I read this truth in a bible verse after it had been something I had already experienced personally. Proverbs 19:8 “He who gets wisdom loves his own soul.” My take on this is that when you Love yourself “before” you’ve made positive and wise changes then and only then will you actually be able to find and receive wisdom. I think it’s interesting that I knew this truth before I read “about” it. I just happened to recognize it in words at that time in my life. I believe truth lives in us and when it gets to a place of growth that roots deep enough for it to pop up from the soil of life then this is when we start to “recognize” what or who truth is.

So many of us have warped ideas of health, wisdom and even Love. I think as I’ve relaxed into a place of really trusting my gut feelings or as I like to say, trusting my heart, I’ve been able to come to more peace about who I am. I like myself better. I seem to be getting more transparent people surrounding me. My life seems more authentic.

I used to struggle so intensely with my weight. Not many people knew because I “looked” great! Oh yes I did! I was never FAT… and fat is supposedly ugly. Well, I felt ugly! My thoughts were ugly and food controlled almost every piece of me! I was not free! I over exercised and under-ate. It wasn’t about “looking” good as much as it was about me feeling a sense of “control” in my life. I never did get into the Bulimic stuff. I was probably borderline anorexic. I say borderline because my body didn’t actually get to a point of rejecting food altogether but I could go days without eating. I used to ride my bike to work and back approximately 24 miles. I would only allow myself to eat maybe a salad and one cup of coffee a day. I was in so much bondage! BUT… people would say, “you look great” and “how do you stay so calm?” When you don’t eat enough I think your emotions shut down or vice versa.

I’m pretty sure that was just what I was doing… shutting down psychologically and trying to “control” pain in my life. Something deep inside me, the truth about who I was, kept calling me out of this craziness. I was always too afraid to let go of my façade of control. I didn’t realize at that time it was a façade. As I got older, the façade started to give way. I became pregnant. Now Love was involved! Maybe the Love for my daughter caused me to Love myself as a mother. This little baby inside of me needs to be healthy and have a healthy and wise mommy. This is when I began to “change.” It pretty much backs up the proverb, doesn’t it?

I’m not going to tell you I’m a super woman and never count my calories. I will tell you without flinching one bit, I’M FREE in this place!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsWgG5v7A3A

Not perfect, but my thoughts are on so many other things. Working out is now just part of my week. Eating well and often is almost like taking a shower. I enjoy food for what it is. My first pregnancy has been more then 17 years. This freedom I truly walk in has come from a place of Truth and love in my soul. We all have it. Let it grow and water it by following your heart. Truth and Love are written on our hearts. What keeps us from finding this treasure is fakeness. Fake plants don’t grow. We are real people alive and breathing. We need light, living water and a safe environment to rest and grow in. We need to trust our hearts. Don’t just look at what people say about you. Everyone “thought” I was fine. I was the only one that really knew how miserable I was. Trust the Love and truth that live inside of you. Love and Truth just want to grow and reveal the magnificent person you were created to be.

We were created to be healthy so when we go that direction we are actually living out what is most true about ourselves.” :)

I am so grateful that our Journey’s have intersected. Please leave a comment by clicking “Green” ~ ☺ Love 2 u, Laurie

Moving On..... By Laurie Jackson 6/15/2010

I just looked at how many blogs I've written these past few months and I imagine out of all nine, for the most part my perceptions of my own thoughts have “Moved On.” Today I was sitting in the car with my fourteen-year-old daughter as we waited for my son's Tae- Kwon-do class to end. She said something I thought was very profound. She said, "Sometimes it's not quitting, it's just moving on." I don't know what we were talking about that made her say this but I knew what she meant straight away.

I have a friend who promotes that; a persons life should be lived organically and able to grow naturally from the heart as an individual, opposed to the pressure of comparing or striving to be what another person or a system of belief would try to convince them to think. A blog I wrote called “Heavy thought trips” is probably one of those blogs I would still agree with completely. I talk about an idea of just simply thinking things through for yourself and coming to your own conclusions about life as you search for answers and just live and learn through your own experiences instead of mimicking and thinking the way others do.

So this blog is just another place I’m moving on or into. The old is passing away and I’m naturally growing into someone that thinks differently then I have in the recent past. I don’t look so different, although I’m trying REALLY hard by dying my hair, working out etc. ☺ But of course I’m talking about an inside type of change.

This past year I have been willing and almost forced to re-evaluate my beliefs about what I feel are the most important aspects in my life; which is relationships. I’ve moved on from some relationships and changed my responses to many. The reason I believe this happened is because I chose to follow my heart more instead of what “looks” like the right or wrong thing to do. I don’t want to live any other way hence the title: Moving On.

I think this must be how it feels for a person coming out of a controlling family life or even maybe say an occult. I have never felt so free to be me. I trust my heart for many reasons that I won’t even blog about at this point. It feels so right but at first I doubted almost every step, except something deeper inside kept me “moving on” in this direction. I’m so glad I did!

Living organically means that you will grow in your natural state. You may even look wild to those who are cultivated by the factory farmers. You may even seem like you have too many bugs on you because you weren’t sprayed with tons of pesticides. I’m no longer making all my decisions based on what everyone else does or expects. What freedom to get out from under such oppression? ☺ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsWgG5v7A3A

I just know I’m Moving on and following my heart which is God given. Let me clarify that I don’t mean I follow every whim and emotion because I would weigh over 300 lbs if I did. I’m not talking about the external, but being truly connected to what I really want and desire from my gut. Scientists have found that there is a chemical reaction that takes place from your gut when a persons instincts kick in. It’s a healthy chemical for your body and isn’t toxic for you. It was created so you would run for dear life! ☺ Do ya get it? If you’ve cut yourself off from your heart it may take awhile to find this natural, organic real you. Hang in there because you were created to be you!

Organically grown is always the healthier choice to make. It seems to be more “spendy” though. Hmmmm?

Until my heart leads me back to blog again I do thank you for sharing in my Journey. And a special thanks to those of you who always seem to find the Best in my heart, you know who you are. ☺