The Wisdom Of Health: By Laurie Jackson 6/22/2010

The Wisdom of Health: by Laurie Jackson

“Yes, this is the wisdom of health, enjoy the process. We were created to be healthy so when we go that direction we are actually living out what is most true about ourselves.” :)

I posted this on a thread the other day. It just sorta came out from my heart. I was so excited for my friend Jennifer’s’ success in her own health journey. She posted her before and after picture and I couldn’t help but celebrate this new place she has come to.

I guess the question and the real point of this blog is this: Is my friend Jennifer coming to a “New” place or returning to who she was created to be in the first place? When we “follow our heart” we will end up in a true representation of our intended creation. (That last sentence could be in a rap song) That’s why I’m keep’n it in! ☺ Being true to your self and loving yourself is ultimate wisdom. I read this truth in a bible verse after it had been something I had already experienced personally. Proverbs 19:8 “He who gets wisdom loves his own soul.” My take on this is that when you Love yourself “before” you’ve made positive and wise changes then and only then will you actually be able to find and receive wisdom. I think it’s interesting that I knew this truth before I read “about” it. I just happened to recognize it in words at that time in my life. I believe truth lives in us and when it gets to a place of growth that roots deep enough for it to pop up from the soil of life then this is when we start to “recognize” what or who truth is.

So many of us have warped ideas of health, wisdom and even Love. I think as I’ve relaxed into a place of really trusting my gut feelings or as I like to say, trusting my heart, I’ve been able to come to more peace about who I am. I like myself better. I seem to be getting more transparent people surrounding me. My life seems more authentic.

I used to struggle so intensely with my weight. Not many people knew because I “looked” great! Oh yes I did! I was never FAT… and fat is supposedly ugly. Well, I felt ugly! My thoughts were ugly and food controlled almost every piece of me! I was not free! I over exercised and under-ate. It wasn’t about “looking” good as much as it was about me feeling a sense of “control” in my life. I never did get into the Bulimic stuff. I was probably borderline anorexic. I say borderline because my body didn’t actually get to a point of rejecting food altogether but I could go days without eating. I used to ride my bike to work and back approximately 24 miles. I would only allow myself to eat maybe a salad and one cup of coffee a day. I was in so much bondage! BUT… people would say, “you look great” and “how do you stay so calm?” When you don’t eat enough I think your emotions shut down or vice versa.

I’m pretty sure that was just what I was doing… shutting down psychologically and trying to “control” pain in my life. Something deep inside me, the truth about who I was, kept calling me out of this craziness. I was always too afraid to let go of my façade of control. I didn’t realize at that time it was a façade. As I got older, the façade started to give way. I became pregnant. Now Love was involved! Maybe the Love for my daughter caused me to Love myself as a mother. This little baby inside of me needs to be healthy and have a healthy and wise mommy. This is when I began to “change.” It pretty much backs up the proverb, doesn’t it?

I’m not going to tell you I’m a super woman and never count my calories. I will tell you without flinching one bit, I’M FREE in this place!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsWgG5v7A3A

Not perfect, but my thoughts are on so many other things. Working out is now just part of my week. Eating well and often is almost like taking a shower. I enjoy food for what it is. My first pregnancy has been more then 17 years. This freedom I truly walk in has come from a place of Truth and love in my soul. We all have it. Let it grow and water it by following your heart. Truth and Love are written on our hearts. What keeps us from finding this treasure is fakeness. Fake plants don’t grow. We are real people alive and breathing. We need light, living water and a safe environment to rest and grow in. We need to trust our hearts. Don’t just look at what people say about you. Everyone “thought” I was fine. I was the only one that really knew how miserable I was. Trust the Love and truth that live inside of you. Love and Truth just want to grow and reveal the magnificent person you were created to be.

We were created to be healthy so when we go that direction we are actually living out what is most true about ourselves.” :)

I am so grateful that our Journey’s have intersected. Please leave a comment by clicking “Green” ~ ☺ Love 2 u, Laurie

Moving On..... By Laurie Jackson 6/15/2010

I just looked at how many blogs I've written these past few months and I imagine out of all nine, for the most part my perceptions of my own thoughts have “Moved On.” Today I was sitting in the car with my fourteen-year-old daughter as we waited for my son's Tae- Kwon-do class to end. She said something I thought was very profound. She said, "Sometimes it's not quitting, it's just moving on." I don't know what we were talking about that made her say this but I knew what she meant straight away.

I have a friend who promotes that; a persons life should be lived organically and able to grow naturally from the heart as an individual, opposed to the pressure of comparing or striving to be what another person or a system of belief would try to convince them to think. A blog I wrote called “Heavy thought trips” is probably one of those blogs I would still agree with completely. I talk about an idea of just simply thinking things through for yourself and coming to your own conclusions about life as you search for answers and just live and learn through your own experiences instead of mimicking and thinking the way others do.

So this blog is just another place I’m moving on or into. The old is passing away and I’m naturally growing into someone that thinks differently then I have in the recent past. I don’t look so different, although I’m trying REALLY hard by dying my hair, working out etc. ☺ But of course I’m talking about an inside type of change.

This past year I have been willing and almost forced to re-evaluate my beliefs about what I feel are the most important aspects in my life; which is relationships. I’ve moved on from some relationships and changed my responses to many. The reason I believe this happened is because I chose to follow my heart more instead of what “looks” like the right or wrong thing to do. I don’t want to live any other way hence the title: Moving On.

I think this must be how it feels for a person coming out of a controlling family life or even maybe say an occult. I have never felt so free to be me. I trust my heart for many reasons that I won’t even blog about at this point. It feels so right but at first I doubted almost every step, except something deeper inside kept me “moving on” in this direction. I’m so glad I did!

Living organically means that you will grow in your natural state. You may even look wild to those who are cultivated by the factory farmers. You may even seem like you have too many bugs on you because you weren’t sprayed with tons of pesticides. I’m no longer making all my decisions based on what everyone else does or expects. What freedom to get out from under such oppression? ☺ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsWgG5v7A3A

I just know I’m Moving on and following my heart which is God given. Let me clarify that I don’t mean I follow every whim and emotion because I would weigh over 300 lbs if I did. I’m not talking about the external, but being truly connected to what I really want and desire from my gut. Scientists have found that there is a chemical reaction that takes place from your gut when a persons instincts kick in. It’s a healthy chemical for your body and isn’t toxic for you. It was created so you would run for dear life! ☺ Do ya get it? If you’ve cut yourself off from your heart it may take awhile to find this natural, organic real you. Hang in there because you were created to be you!

Organically grown is always the healthier choice to make. It seems to be more “spendy” though. Hmmmm?

Until my heart leads me back to blog again I do thank you for sharing in my Journey. And a special thanks to those of you who always seem to find the Best in my heart, you know who you are. ☺